Day 10

I am not in a place to do an assignment today, so I'm just going off the top of my head, and this will be short because I'm tired, and grumpy.  But today I realized, I feel further away from God when I need him most.  I don't know why that is, but I do.  When I'm down, and upset, I'm cynical and not drawn to God, I know that's when I need Him most, but for some reason that is when I push away.  I need to figure out why that is.